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maybe one day i'll be fixed
but not today
not today
not today
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2. |
signal to noise
03:30
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i don't know what to do with myself
in these rooms that fill up with noise
and i can't tell know if i'm spinning my wheels
because it always sounds this way
i can't wrap my little head around us
there's a disconnect happening somewhere
we all shout and scream "fuck bloody murder"
and laugh about it and talk about it and some more
i hear a buzz most of the time
i can't hear a word most of the time
i listen so hard most of the time
but the signal to noise is wrong
the signal to noise is wrong
the signal to noise is wrong
the signal to noise is wrong
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3. |
apocalypse song
04:13
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look at your watch, it's half past eternity
look outside, the apocalypse is currently
booked. it's on, not a mouse left to scurry
and soot, and ash, and radioactivity
everything i say is false to you
everything i say is a joke to you
watch out, behind you, there's a mutated man-monster
don't doubt, don't shout, don't surprise him he seems sinister
find a route, you've got about ten seconds, he's a sprinter
now don't pout, it's tough right now, but things might get better
everything i do is clumsy to you
everything i think you already knew
dropping the bomb was a calculated decision
plotting armageddon, a careful incision
weeks of deliberation, and pacing, and envisioning
halting our progress to start a better version
everything we built was a waste of time
everybody i knew was a victim of mine
everything i did, i did it for us
everything i did, was for a metamorphosis
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4. |
dial
02:12
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i drink too much coffee
i know it's not good for me
my body is falling apart
i eat too much sugar
with minimal exercise
standing still, won't break a sweat
i should make
a doctor's appointment soon
it's been several years since
my last checkup
but i just know
there's something festering
inside of me
that i don't want to know about
i know what calls to make
i know what calls to make
now to dial the numbers
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5. |
school
03:58
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"when we start dating, I'd like to get to know your parents
but I can't seem to figure out why there's always interference"
"it doesn't make much sense, why are you always on the fence?
speaking in the present tense, why are you always on the fence?"
"yes i know, i remember you from last semester
we watched eraserhead and that film with that chicken arrester"
"i sit here in the back, so i can attend in peace, don't misconstrue
i don't take this class just to sit in the back and talk with you"
school is an institution meant make us learn and grow
i guess it worked, i never knew i could be so low
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6. |
invisible barriers
01:55
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i don't like video games
just the way they make me feel
i don't like killing people
even when i know they're not real
don't know what to say and
don't know how to say it
who do i say it to
i don't like having sex
it's a passing hormonal drive
i'm jealous of the pines
growing without feeling alive
don't know what to say and
don't know how to say it
who do i say it to
seagulls, windows, invisible barriers
lost in space with cryogenics
i don't like being alone
and i don't like it when there's a crowd
i don't like being quiet
but i very rarely ever get loud
don't know what to say and
don't know how to say it
who do i say it to
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7. |
the things i don't do
05:43
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i woke up this morning and i
felt like the dead
woke up this morning
legs filled with lead
the window's open
the door is closed
the air pressure from the outside world
makes it seem like there's a ghost
i woke up this evening
and i don't wanna work
woke up this evening
don't care if i'm broke
my life is over, too late to try
the way i spent my youthful days
as if i'd never die
i spotted a problem a mile away
and i let it get me anyway
watched it close in from all directions
the thing about me is
i don't do preemptions
i spotted a problem a mile away
and i let it get me anyway
watched it close in from all directions
the thing about me is
i don't do preemptions
i spotted a problem a mile away
and i let it get me anyway
watched it close in from all directions
the thing about me is
i don't do-
don't do preemptions
i spotted a problem a mile away
and i let it get me anyway
watched it close in from all directions
the thing about me is
i don't do preemptions
i spotted a problem a mile away
and i let it get me anyway
watched it close in from all directions
the thing about me is
i don't do preemptions
i spotted a problem a mile away
and i let it get me anyway
watched it close in from all directions
the thing about me is
i don't do redemptions
i spotted a problem a mile away
and i let it get me anyway
watched it close in from all directions
the thing about me is
i don't do preemptions
i spotted a problem a mile away
and i let it get me anyway
watched it close in from all directions
the thing about me is
i don't do preemptions
i spotted a problem a mile away
and i let it get me anyway
watched it close in from all directions
the thing about me is
i don't do preemptions
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8. |
laura
03:55
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you don't know what it's like, singing this old tune
sister's getting married soon
off to work i go, then to the gym i know
"heigh-ho," a capella snow white
never been too light, never been out of sight
never had a white-knight
sure i'll come in saturday, had no plans to stay in or go out that day
sure i'll come in sunday too, thought i might sleep but that's not a thing that I do
you don't know what it's like making minimum wage
when you reach laura's age
your kid won't speak to you, she's got a job too,
but what else is knew
you live alone, it shows, christmas comes and goes
seasonal employment throes
laura had her daughter when she was eighteen
managed to support her, thought they were a team
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(oooowaaooo)
i got you with me
(oooowaahooo)
you're all i see
(oooowaaooo)
you're a fantasy
please don't disappear on me
vanessa, you're a fairy-tale
ordinary is memory
i've been transported to land far away
my thoughts are never, ever crowded
devotion to you, i've never doubted
vanessa i hope you are here to stay
(oooowaaooo)
i got you with me
(oooowaaooo)
you're all i see
(oooowaaooo)
you're a fantasy
please don't disappear on me
i only hope the screen keeps running
maybe i'll keep the repeats coming
and watch your tv drama every day
i don't need nothing else
as long as i have you to myself
i can see you whenever i want to hit play
(oooowaaooo)
i got you with me
(oooowaaooo)
you're all i see
(oooowaaooo)
you're a fantasy
please don't disappear on me
please don't disappear on me
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10. |
song 13
03:39
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waiting for my mistakes to catch up with me
waiting for my mistakes to catch up with me
waiting for my mistakes to catch up with me
i'm a victim of myself and i strike so swiftly
i'm laying in a corner all bruised and broken
sheltered in a shack with the pain unspoken
a rare guest speaks the seldom words "please open"
i'm a victim of myself so i forgo them
this is not a path that i would have chosen
it's an awful long way
it's an awful long way
something about this world makes it seem so haunted
noises without sources and a village disbonded
i'd like to blame a ghost or a devil, gaunt and flaunted
but i'm a victim of myself, always got what i wanted
if i knew what was to come I'd a'never responded
it's an awful long way
it's an awful long way
i'm a writer who can't figure out an end
i'll make it up as i go along but i'll
wish i had it planned to catch all my mistakes
plot holes and embarrassing headaches
this what the sands of time do at their best
uncover buried bones when the wind blows west
the desert pulls the moisture from my aching chest
but i'm a victim of myself, give that sand some rest
there's only me to to blame for the pages transgressed
it's an awful way to be
it's an awful thing to see
i'm an actor who can't stay in character
missing a teleprompter to
tell me what to say to keep me relatable
if only it was that simple
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you're only with me because you're sick
it's only natural, it's automatic
subconscious habits that need to be fixed
sometimes i can't tell whose more solipsistic
we're together on feeble grounds
i know i'll make my way to your lost and found
when you quietly turn your life around
i know i'll make my way to your lost and found
we're both victims of circumstance, i don't disagree
we can't be there for each other if we're out of body
circling above, trying to understand our own behavior
surgical gloves, dissecting patterns with cameras and tracers
trying to be a saviour
its not fair your dog died he was barely two years old
its not fair i'm alive, i took his place i'm so old, i'm so old
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12. |
standstill
03:20
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caught in a sunk cost fallacy
in a soulless factory
in a salt-less dead sea
in a friendless enemy
in an endless wintry
relationship i never meant it to be
stuck in a standstill looking back
to the times i couldn't act
time to grow up and i slacked
time to show up and i missed
moments left hanging and dismissed
but i insist i dont do this shit on purpose
accuse me of acting distant and sad
that's not fair, i'm the same with dad
next you tell me how you want me to be
i say ill try but no guarantee
trapped in a certain way to live
trained to take more than i give
made to stare off dismissive
wish i were more proactive
not to be so defensive
but i think i got used to going through life passive
compared to when i was a little boy
i'm not so much fun since i've outgrown all my toys
and we don't talk as much as we used to do
i don't like to say it, our connections are so few
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waiting all day
waiting all day
for a message
from you
waiting all day
waiting all day
for an invitation
the silence is difficult to cope
the silence is difficult to cope
and lately i've come to realize
lately you've made me realize
how real
my anxiety is
shame, guilt
fear and loneliness
shame, guilt
fear and loneliness
shame, guilt
fear and loneliness
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Squiggly Lines Toronto, Ontario
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